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Feral
03:33
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Falling asleep trying to fucking die
It’s been a while since I’ve felt alive
Feeling the weight of my world crashing down around me
It’s in my head, and I feel like I am fucking drowning
But I’m still breathing
Rip the knife out of my back
Falling further
Trapped here forever
My mind set to attack
Here we are again, same excuses and the same old story
Mix it up cause it’s starting to bore me
And I starting to hate myself
Ignorance is bliss no matter the cost
Spiraling down around
It would depend how you feel
I always told myself to oppress my demons
Every time that I lie awake
I don’t know how much more of this that I can take
Snap out of it everyone’s after me
They try to lull me to sleep
But I won’t concede
It tears me apart
That I have to feel this pain again
Feel this pain again
They try to break me down
And disregard suffocation
The anomaly has become a phenomena
Bring it back
But I’m still breathing
Rip the knife out of my back
Falling further
Trapped here forever
My mind set to attack
Inevitable demise
I’m sick of all your lies
You turn your back and close your eyes
Trying to put on your best disguise
You think you’ve got it all figured out
But you should go and see the look on your face
Spit it out how bad does it taste
When you walk around so fucked up can’t remember your name.
And I’m counting down the days
But you threw it away in the first place
Spiraling down around
It would depend how you feel
I always told myself to oppress my demons
Every time that I lie awake
I don’t know how much more of this that I can take
Feeling the weight of my world crashing down around me
It’s in my head, and I feel like I am fucking drowning
Demon noise
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Vengeance
Bound and tied and forced to submission
Already know, that this is effort for you to listen
Slithering in and out my life
I guess there’s no way out
I will see the fear in the eyes of my abuser
Torturing me
It’s been my duty to escape
I’ve lost everyone I once loved
And now I’ve got to take my life back
It’s all coming to life
(Kim Dracula)
N/A hasn’t sent them yet
(Taylor)
The devils in broad day he’s right before your eyes fuck it
(Taylor)
I wish that they’d drag me down
(Kim Dracula)
I’m so sick of suffering (low talk)
(Taylor)
There’s no easy way out
(Taylor and Kim together)
THEY’VE TAKEN EVERYTHING FROM ME
Vengeance
Bound and tied and forced to submission
Already know, that this is effort for you to listen
Slithering in and out my life
I guess there’s no way out
There’s no way out
Non est exitume x2
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I’m sitting while spinning in silence
I’m suffocating on the air we breathe
Rebuild, repent
The thoughts in my head are a fucking disease
And now they’re absent
I hear the disembodied voices screaming at me in the past tense
Slowly losing control
And now I know that I am all alone
Slowly counting down
While I’m losing my head with my feet on the ground
Fell in love with what it is
Silently judging me but you don’t know how to live
Now die
Cause I’m feeling alive
And manipulating others is just part of your time
And now you’re dead set, on trying to justify
The only form of self punishment is on the inside
So sick of people trying to tell me how to live
And I can’t decipher what box I’m fucking in
Makes it hard breathe
Even harder to believe
And my feet are tired from walking through hell
NOW REST
No one can save me
From the mess I’ve made
Burn my corpse and defile my grave
Becoming manic
And I think it’s time for us to panic
It’s coming to life
(Joe Bad)
I can’t sleep with the thoughts that are locked inside of me
Paralyzed in the lies that are locked in agony
dance with the dead
I chose suffering instead
The only way out is to cut off my head
We watched the galaxies burn
And chose to suffer and die
To see through the light of day
I pray he blind both my eyes
Blind both my eyes
We can’t stay this fucked up forever
Slowly pushing through it now we’re in this together
Rise over malice, grow only through pain
Wait for waves to waves to wash away.
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4. |
Break the Fever
02:39
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So give it up there’s no time to regret
And in this world is there supposed to be an ending
I see it clearly now
They build me up just to break me down
But why’d it hurt so bad
When we all seem to be so sad
And I’m fighting every day with depression
When societies answer is suppression
And I’m getting so damn tired
Of living alone with my past mistakes
So pick it up pick it up pick it up
The world just never going to give a fuck
So come on
And I’ve been fighting with it every day
Trying come up with solutions try to numb out the pain
Yea
And I’m dizzy and spinning trying to throw up unwilling
To give it up and out last the day
I sink to the floor and I stare at the ceiling
And it makes me sick
I twist this cap and I take these pills just trying to
SWEAT OUT THE ILLNESS
Built only from pain
And I’m counting down the days
Fear me, do you feel afraid
Genuinely, viciously sick
Slowly sedating me you bitch
Oof
So give it up there’s no time to regret
And in this world is there supposed to be an ending
I see it clearly now
They build me up just to break me down
But why’d it hurt so bad
When we all seem to be so sad
And I’m fighting every day with depression
When society’s answer is suppression
Genuinely, viciously sick
Slowly sedating me you bitch
Throw me under the weight
But I’ll just stay above it
Blegh
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5. |
Recluse
03:31
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I’m not made to fall apart
As I sticking my fingers into my skull
Play dead as I sever the lifeline
Where is your comfort now
Becoming a beggar and stuck here forever
They hold my tongue as they insert the tether
And I, I play dumb to the stories they tell me
I lie down until it gets boring
This has become a subject of conflict
And I digress
Paralyzed it sets
Beg take to take it back
Pulling out my hair I’m breaking out of this artificial mold
I’m a slave to death
And it hurts
I stand for nothing
Please save me
Pray for death
This pain I can not describe
And I know everything’s in the hands of my torment
No one’s left to comfort me
This is never as good as it gets
No one’s left to comfort you
I guess this is as good as it gets
And your company is a personal threat
Imagine a life that you could think for yourself
And not push someone personal agenda
Inside here forever I’m pulling the lever and I’m
So sick of being a personal martyr for you
Wipe me down and leave me to dry
I’m so sick of all your lies
Hold me down as your sacrifice
You need me but ignore it and push it away
I’m not made to fall apart
As I sticking my fingers into my skull
Play dead as I sever the lifeline
Where is your comfort now
Becoming a beggar and stuck here forever
They hold my tongue as they insert the tether
And I, I play dumb to the stories they tell me
I lie down until it gets boring
I play dumb to the stories they tell me
I’ll lie down until it gets boring
You thought you could forget about me
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Illusion of Sleep
02:31
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GR GR GR
wake up
Is this the life that I’ve made
Built upon the life that I’ve changed
Seemingly just going insane
But I cannot block out the bad days
Round and round we go in the darkness
We push and pull until someone gives way
I know nothings changed
We wake up with bloodshot eyes
So desperate to find peace of mind
Ive seen you ghost
Parade around in my head
On repeat because of my dread
Doubting whether or not that I’m dead
Cause you forced me to listen
Ugh
Listen to me x3
Now I lay me down to sleep
Pray your mind my soul to keep
If I die before I wake
Pray your peace of mind I take x2
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Disappoint Me
02:18
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Breaking me down as quickly as you build me up
And I’m still here thinking about it every day
Cause we’re not built to feel pain
Start to feel nauseous when will anything fucking change
Oh
Why does it matter when we’re all going to die
Why can’t you ever fucking look me in the eye
Why am I the one that you’ve chosen
So make up you’re fucking mind
You try to rewrite my reality
Blegh
There ya go just spit in my face
Keep my name in your mouth how bad does it taste
Why do you sit there and belittle me?
Oh
When you choke on your own animosity
Ah
Cause we’re not built to feel pain
Start to feel nauseous when will anything fucking change
Oh
Why does it matter when we’re all going to die
We’re living in a lie
I always trusted you, but you
Disappoint me
A question now as the story unfolds
A never ending catacomb of a misery hole
And the devil on my shoulder says that I should be sentenced to death
Left in the cold I take my last breath
Cause we’re not built to feel pain
Start to feel nauseous when will anything fucking change
Oh
Why does it matter when we’re all going to die
Why can’t you ever fucking look me in the eye
Breaking me down as quickly as you build me up
And I’m still here thinking about it every day
Cause we’re not built to feel pain
Start to feel nauseous when will anything fucking change
Oh
Why does it matter when we’re all going to die
Why can’t you ever fucking look me in the eye
Why am I the one that you’ve chosen
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8. |
Consistent Suffering
03:31
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Put out the fire
That burns it’s hole
Inside my soul and is swallowing me whole
I know the pain is insufferable
And off to hell I go
Tear out the stitch
Why is it coming to this
Slowing writhing inside I’m desperate now to feel alive
Woah
Now I’m losing control
Left in the cold I’m all alone
Doomed, as the cycle repeats itself
Cause there’s no help for anyone else
But I’m starting to look at myself
As the problem cause I know how it felt
I’m starting to suffocate
And it leads to being irate
Spit it out
Words from your dirty mouth
As if you know the people you all seem to talk about
Ahh
This seems so trivial yet effortless
Free formed words for another ass to kiss
This feeling isn’t going away
My life now is broken
I wish I left it unspoken
You left me to die here
And now it’s a constant reminder
I know you feel me now
Locked in the mess I made
Too busy searching for answers
To fix the damage you’ve caused
You can’t fix my fucked up mind
That burns it’s hole
Inside my soul and is swallowing me whole
I know the pain is insufferable
And off to hell I go
Consistent Suffering
Built only from pain
As I’m counting down the days
And nothing feels the same
A never ending fucking elegy
A full syringe into the heart of animosity
And just to make the matters worse
I only look to you for validation first
Leaving me feeling insecure
Cause you know how to hurt me
I know you feel me now
Locked in the mess I made
Too busy searching for answers
To fix the damage you’ve caused x2
Consistent suffering
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